Just like the joy and delight opening a fresh, blank notebook can be, so this new blog post is, however, the pressure within myself to write something profound, interesting or thoughtful squishes out any of those notions and I am left here, staring at a blank page wondering what to say.
Its actually a relief that my blogs are always so insignificant and somewhat un-noticed by the world, otherwise I would be overwhelmed with the responsibility to entertain and amuse!
Many years ago I would have relished attention and a little notority, but I changed somewhere along the line, my bubbly personality ran out of 'fizz/gas', and I feel intimidated and overwhelmed by attention.
Anyway....How I am now is not how I'll always be/feel, one day it will all be better.
Life isn't awful or unhappy for us right now.
We got through a really hard few years, hard becauses of silly choices we made in life, because of consequences, because of how life is, because of the 'economic downturn'.
We had to downsize, change the way we were living and now we live in this little bungalow, 2 minutes from a 'rustic' little tiny 'beach', with fields behind us.
Some would think I am being unrealistic and imaginative by describing my home as a little seaside cottage in the countryside, so I won't!
We're just managing on a meager income, and I've had to adopt a thriftier lifestyle...but I like it,( not because its 'fashionable' at the moment.)
I've had a house full of Clutter and 'Things', and it never brought any true happiness or contentment, just an insatiable yearning for More.
I want to be able to look back on this blog and remind myself of how happy we can be with little means. How it doesn't take much to enjoy life and the things around us, and how actually we haven't 'ended up' here,as in that we have failed in life, but we have been blessed with what we've always craved and wanted and needed all along.
Having a constant battle with Depression I need to focus on positive things and encouraging things.
So I'm going to blog about my favourite things.
Just simple pleasures, little delights, things that make me smile, or make my heart warm with fondness.
